The mission of this sabbatical is to get myself together.
I feel like its time! The universe is telling me IT IS TIME.
I am always needing a break from social media. It gets to be too emotionally demanding, I get irritated, happy, sad, mad all over stuff that I see on social media. I don't want anything to have that kind of hold on my emotions, so every now and then I take a break from it, or try to at least.
My year started off amazing, I took a solo trip to Dallas. I was on cloud 9. Then things started happening, one thing after another. Just stuff that impacted my vibe negatively. My space was out of order, my mind has been all over the place, I felt like I was just going through the motions without thriving. I need to thrive to accomplish what I have set out to accomplish this year and in life.
So I knew it was time for me to take a much needed break..
Confirmation Part 1. On the first day of sabbatical, I was listening to the MyTaughtYou Podcast, this episode was an interview with Devi Brown. You can listen to that here.
Myleiks podcast is always on time for me, she drops all the gems. ALL OF THE GEMS. She is my big sister/mentor in my head. I talked about this before here.
Anyway, on the podcast Devi spoke about taking a sabbatical. She used the word sabbatical, I don't know where/how that word came to me when I came up with this idea, because usually I use the word hiatus when I take a break from social media but this time.. sabbatical. To me this came as a sign, that I am doing this at the right time, and the right thing for me right now. Devi was talking about so many things that I can relate to, so many things that I needed to hear, right now.
Confirmation Part 2. As I was making my going away posts on my Instagram and Twitter accounts, I came across a post about the moon from a friend of mine LaDawn. You can follow her on Instagram @ladawndozier and her Snapchat is LaDawn Dozier. I've known LaDawn since I was a wee little tike, and she is one of the people who has kinda popped back in life via social media and she seems to always share things that are in line with what I am going thru at the time, soul sistah vibes all the way .. so she posted these..
Images courtesy of @ladawndozier via Instagram.
Like whaaaat? A sign if I didn't know one. This made me feel like not only is it the right time, but also that I will get to where I am supposed to be.
This break is what I need!
I need time to live, think and just figure me out.
A huge part of this is trying to figure out what I wanna be when I grow up.
At age 29, I can honestly say... I DON’T KNOW.
I know that I want success, cliché. I am not really sure what that means to me or exactly what it looks like. I do know that I want to have a wonderful relationship with my daughter. I want a fulfilling career. I want to feel full in myself additionally, I know that I feel invigorated by love. So, I want love too and marriage. I want a nice house, and a nice car. I want to be financially free. All these things would make me happy.
The thing is, its GENERAL. I need to be more specific. I need to get more specific for myself. I have a hard time drilling in, getting to the point.
So as part of my sabbatical for this month, I am trying to really get intimate with what I want and really draw it out for myself. If you don’t know what you want, how can you get it?
I AM GOING TO FIGURE IT OUT.
That's what I am working on, currently.