Dude. I am bout to be 30. Like legit bout to be 30 in like 4 days.
How? I remember getting on the school bus in like the 6th grade and seeing the 8th graders thinking wow, they are so grown up. Here I am now, 29.997 years old, and I don’t even feel like an adult. Who signed me up for this? I don’t wanna play.
Anyway, I have been reflecting on the last decade, and wow. I don’t give myself enough credit. I have been through a lot, and I made it.
21, I became a mom. I did it on my own, I was making a little tiny amount of money. I was making it but I was not flourishing. I was making it but I was green. I thought I knew a lot, but I knew nothing about nothing. Typical 21 year old, living life on the edge, teetering on that b- word I don’t use weekly. I lived in that space until I was about 25/26 maybe. Then I paid off my car early. That changed my life financially, but.. I still didn’t quite get it.
At 26, financially I was getting it together. I got a new job, increased my income. I was diagnosed with ITP, went through treatment and came out the other side. I got out of a relationship that I thought would last forever. That year, was riddled with lessons, and learning experiences. I grew through all that. I made it out. Then I thought I had found my sweet spot, things were good. I got my dream car; I was in a good place. I was traveling. I was living life to the fullest.
Let me tell y'all about 29. Actually, more specifically 2018 in general has been HARD. This year, by the time it’s all said and done, will cost me an extra $18,000. Started by finding out I had to pay for my final year of college out of pocket. Then the debacle with my car, that was $$$, that just became a snowball of crap. It wouldn’t stop. Finally, I had to say goodbye to Bella. I wanna cry just thinking about it. Life lessons, 29 was hard af.
The thing about all of this is, and I have to keep reminding myself, is that I made it.
I made it through all of those things.
I made it through ITP treatment.
I made it through losing love.
I made it through being low on funds, that awful b-word.
I made it through losing friends.
I made it through being a full time student and mom.
I made it.
Although I feel super anxious, I am excited about 30.
I am claiming an amazing 30th year.
I will graduate from college. I will find my career space and flourish. I will achieve all my goals.
I am going to spend the rest of this week making my 30 Bucket List. I will share it on here next week.
Before I go, wanted to share this .. this is me for the next 4 days.. lol
Cheers to 30.
Next time we chat, I will be a dutty thutty.